Friday, December 28, 2007


1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
First time to apply for a US visa. Moved out of my parents' house to work in the US. Learned how to drive Pinoy style and survived the streets of Manila... now the US freeways. My first Asian vacation outside the philippines... Hong Kong! Had my longest vacation (that's 2 months!) eversince I started working almost 7years ago.

2. Where did you study/ work?
Worked in our Makati office. Worked from home. Worked from my Aunt's home in SFO and Temecula. Worked in Glendale, AZ.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes! My travel buddy/kumare/shock-absorber Phengtot.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
None! Thank God!

5. What countries did you visit?
Hong Kong, US

6. Did you move anywhere?
Moved out of my parents home to work here in the US. Moved to SFO and stayed there for more than 2 weeks. Moved to Temecula and stayed there for almost a month.

7. What sporting events did you go to?
OMG... none!

8. What concerts did you go to?
Gary V concert in Pechanga.

9. Who was your Valentine in 2007?

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
The cyst on my left eye. My still polycystic left ovary. Hala puro na lang cyst!

11. What was your best month?

12. Where did most of your money go?
shopping for clothes and shoes

13. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
When I started working again after 2 months of vacationing. My move to the US. My first drive home from Makati to QC.

14. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Beautiful Girls. Frisco Anthem. Chris Daughtry's music.

15. What did you do on the 4th of July?
My usual busy day at work.

16. What were the best...

* books you read?
Uh-oh... never finished a book this year

* movies you saw?
Rush Hour 3

* CDs you listened to?
Chris Daughtry

17. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Went around Pinas more

18. What do you wish you'd done less of?

19. How will you be spending Christmas?
Spent christmas alone but went on a roadtrip with Marc and Kuya Billy from Glendale to Grand Canyon to Las Vegas and back few days before Christmas.

20. Did you fall in love in 2007?
yes... but with the wrong man.

21. How many one-night stands?
ummm... hmmmm... two-nights stands with a single man. dont judge me... I am lonely.

22. What was your favorite TV program?
Heroes, Grey's anatomy, Prison Break

23. Compared to this time last year, are you:

* happier or sadder?

* thinner or fatter?

* richer or poorer?

24. What was your favorite summer memory of 2007?
Hong Kong vacation with my friends

25. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Turned 27. I was at Temecula taking my vacation. Me and my Aunt's family went to SeaWorld San Diego and had dinner at Buca di Beppo in Diego.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Ipod speakers and the cute Ipod touch

27. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Tom Welling. Wentworth Miller.

28. Who was the best new person you met?
I've met a lot of new people this year especially because I moved to another country. This is probably the one of the better things in being a consultant and living in a suitcase.

29. Where were you when 2007 began and who were you with?
I was in Manila with my family.

30. What are your plans for 2008?
Jan-April : Stay here in Glendale, AZ. Probably visit Riverside and LA in some weekends.
May : I should be in Santa Clara working for a new client.
Jun : Visit Chicago, Florida or NJ
Sept : Go back to Manila
Nov : Thanksgiving in SFO

Get an apartment in CA.
Buy a car.
Save more and shop less.
If budget permits, visit Barcelona.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

First Christmas in USA

My first Christmas here in the US was spent here in Arizona... alone and boring! But a few days before Christmas, my friends from LA (Marc and Kuya Billy), came over for a roadtrip. We went around Phoenix downtown, Grand Canyon and finally to our original destination, Las Vegas! I am a lazy blogger so I'll just post pictures of our recent trip.

I have something to confess... I am liking someone again but that someone isn't interested in having a relationship right now. Hayyy... Always the wrong men. Nakaka-sad tong pictures na to pag tinitingnan ko...

Don't ask me why we have so many pictures together. Nagkataon lang or sinadya? I honestly don't know.

Friday, December 21, 2007

Phoenix, AZ

Oh my gosh... I am such a lazy blogger! It's been a hella busy week. I've been here in Glendale, Arizona for more than a week now. Stayed at a hotel near my client's office for 5 days and then I transferred here in an apartment at a posh location last monday. I'll be staying in this apartment for a month and then I have to find myself another apartment.

New updates about me...

- work is like everyday hell. Been doing my all-time most disliked project... SAP Enterprise Portal. Uh-oh!
- I drive myself to office everyday. Been renting a car for the last week.
- Drove on the freeway! Woohoo!
- Independent way of life... cook, do laundry, clean the house... no more maids for me!

I am looking forward to my friends from LA coming over tomorrow to visit me. We're all going to Vegas to spend christmas there. This is something new for me... spending christmas with friends instead of my family. Well at least not spending it alone! =) I guess that is something I should already be thankful for.

Oh, as far as settling here in Glendale is concerned, I am not really convinced to live here. Not just yet. Let's see if I survive the 120degrees summer here.

Sunday, December 09, 2007

My birth month is November

November: has a lot of ideas. difficult to fathom. thinks forward. unique and brilliant. extraordinary ideas. sharp thinking. fine and strong clairvoyance. can become good doctors. dynamic in personality. secretive. inquisitive. knows how to dig secrets. always thinking. less talkative but amiable. brave and generous. patient. stubborn and hard-hearted. if there is a will, there is a way. determined. never give up. hardly becomes angry unless provoked. loves to be alone. thinks differently from others. sharp-minded. motivates oneself. does not appreciate praises. high-spirited. well-built and tough. deep love and emotions. romantic. uncertain in relationships. homely. hardworking. high abilities. trustworthy. honest and keeps secrets. not able to control emotions. unpredictable.

I was nodding my head when I was reading this from a friend's blog. Most of the descriptions are so me especially the part "uncertain in relationship". Hahaha. I know! I am not getting any younger and I should be thinking of settling down. Somehow I feel affected whenever I hear my friends getting engaged, getting married or having their first born. I feel affected in such a way that I ask myself why don't I ever think of myself getting into those situations very soon or am I abnormal or something? Most of my friends are either married or engaged. Whenever people ask me when I am getting married, I just brush off the topic and tell them dont ask me that question in like 10years from now. Hahaha.

Friday, December 07, 2007

The Twelve Months

Got this from a friend's blog.

january: stubborn and hard-hearted. ambitious and serious. loves to teach and be taught. always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. likes to criticize. hardworking and productive. smart, neat and organized. sensitive and has deep thoughts. knows how to make others happy. quiet unless excited or tensed. rather reserved. highly attentive. resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. romantic but has difficulties expressing love. loves children. loyal. has great social abilities yet easily jealous. very stubborn and money cautious.

february: abstract thoughts. loves reality and abstract. intelligent and clever. changing personality. attractive. sexy. temperamental. quiet, shy and humble. honest and loyal. determined to reach goals. loves freedom. rebellious when restricted. loves aggressiveness. too sensitive and easily hurt. gets angry really easily but does not show it. dislikes unnecessary things. loves making friends but rarely shows it. daring and stubborn. ambitious. realizes dreams and hopes. sharp. loves entertainment and leisure. romantic on the inside not outside. superstitious and ludicrous. spendthrift. tries to learn to show emotions.

march: attractive personality. sexy. affectionate. shy and reserved. secretive. naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. loves peace and serenity. sensitive to others. loves to serve others. easily angered. trustworthy. appreciative and returns kindness. observant and assesses others. revengeful. loves to dream and fantasize. loves traveling. loves attention. hasty decisions in choosing partners. loves home decors. musically talented. loves special things. moody.

april: active and dynamic. decisive and hasty but tends to regret. attractive and affectionate to oneself. strong mentality. loves attention. diplomatic. consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. brave and fearless. adventurous. loving and caring. suave and generous. emotional. aggressive. hasty. good memory. moving. motivates oneself and others. sickness usually of the head and chest. sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

may: stubborn and hard-hearted. strong-willed and highly motivated. sharp thoughts. easily angered. attracts others and loves attention. deep feelings. beautiful physically and mentally. firm standpoint. needs no motivation. easily consoled. systematic (left brain). loves to dream. strong clairvoyance. understanding. sickness usually in the ear and neck. good imagination. good physical. weak breathing. loves literature and the arts. loves traveling. dislike being at home. restless. not having many children. hardworking. high spirited. spendthrift.

june: thinks far with vision. easily influenced by kindness. polite and soft-spoken. having ideas. sensitive. active mind. hesitating, tends to delay. choosy and always wants the best. temperamental. funny and humorous. loves to joke. good debating skills. talkative. daydreamer. friendly. knows how to make friends. able to show character. easily hurt. prone to getting colds. loves to dress up. easily bored. fussy. seldom shows emotions. takes time to recover when hurt. brand conscious. executive. stubborn.

july: fun to be with. secretive. difficult to fathom and to be understood. quiet unless excited or tensed. takes pride in oneself. has reputation. easily consoled. honest. concerned about people’s feelings. tactful. friendly. approachable. emotional temperamental and unpredictable. moody and easily hurt. witty and sparkly. not revengeful. forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. guides others physically and mentally. sensitive and forms impressions carefully. caring and loving. treats others equally. strong sense of sympathy. wary and sharp. judges people through observations. hardworking. no difficulties in studying. loves to be alone. always broods about the past and the old friends. likes to be quiet. homely person. waits for friends. never looks for friends. not aggressive unless provoked. prone to having stomach and dieting problems. loves to be loved. easily hurt but takes long to recover.

august: loves to joke. attractive. suave and caring. brave and fearless. firm and has leadership qualities. knows how to console others. too generous and egoistic. takes high pride in oneself. thirsty for praises. extraordinary spirit. easily angered. angry when provoked. easily jealous. observant. careful and cautious. thinks quickly. independent thoughts. loves to lead and to be led. loves to dream. talented in the arts, music and defense. sensitive but not petty. poor resistance against illnesses. learns to relax. hasty and trusty. romantic. loving and caring. loves to make friends.

september: suave and compromising. careful, cautious and organized. likes to point out people’s mistakes. likes to criticize. stubborn. quiet but able to talk well. calm and cool. kind and sympathetic. concerned and detailed. loyal but not always honest. does work well. very confident. sensitive. good memory. clever and knowledgeable. loves to look for information. must control oneself when criticizing. able to motivate oneself. understanding. fun to be around. secretive. loves leisure and traveling. hardly shows emotions. tends to bottle up feelings. very choosy, especially in relationships. systematic.

october: loves to chat. loves those who loves them. loves to take things at the center. inner and physical beauty. lies but doesn’t pretend. gets angry often. treats friends importantly. always making friends. easily hurt but recovers easily. daydreamer. opinionated. does not care of what others think. emotional. decisive. strong clairvoyance. loves to travel, the arts and literature. touchy and easily jealous. concerned. loves outdoors. just and fair. spendthrift. easily influenced. easily loses confidence. loves children.

november: has a lot of ideas. difficult to fathom. thinks forward. unique and brilliant. extraordinary ideas. sharp thinking. fine and strong clairvoyance. can become good doctors. dynamic in personality. secretive. inquisitive. knows how to dig secrets. always thinking. less talkative but amiable. brave and generous. patient. stubborn and hard-hearted. if there is a will, there is a way. determined. never give up. hardly becomes angry unless provoked. loves to be alone. thinks differently from others. sharp-minded. motivates oneself. does not appreciate praises. high-spirited. well-built and tough. deep love and emotions. romantic. uncertain in relationships. homely. hardworking. high abilities. trustworthy. honest and keeps secrets. not able to control emotions. unpredictable.

december: loyal and generous. sexy. patriotic. active in games and interactions. impatient and hasty. ambitious. influential in organizations. fun to be with. loves to socialize. loves praises. loves attention. loves to be loved. honest and trustworthy. not pretending. short tempered. changing personality. not egotistic. take high pride in oneself. hates restrictions. loves to joke. good sense of humor. logical.

Wednesday, December 05, 2007


I was too lazy to change my template but I did make an effort to change my header image. Hehe. I have been also too lazy to blog here but my multiply site always gets updated with new pictures from my recent trips. It's easier to post pictures than to write something noh! Anyway, here are some updates about me...

- Went to SeaWorld San Diego twice. That's two consecutive Saturdays in November!
- Went to Disneyland California last weekend with Marc and his SFC friends
- Ate Jollibee chickenjoy again! Woohoo!
- For some odd reason, I like rollercoaster rides. It's on top of my should-ride-list whenever we go to a theme park. Fine! Kinakareer ko ang mga theme parks dito sa Amerika. Hahaha
- I filled a whole balikbayan box with stuff to send to my family and friends in Manila in just 3 days! Yes, you read it right! Some people need a month to get the balikbayan box filled with goodies. I did it in three days! Oh yeah, it's supposed to be a Christmas present for my family and friends but too bad the box won't arrive until after new year because of the too many holidays in Manila.
- I bought a new digicam and 2GB SD card. Katas ng after Thanksgiving sale! I don't understand why stuff are hella cheap here in the US when most of the products sold here are made in Asia.

I don't think I've ever mentioned here that I already have a project which will start on December 13. I will be flying to Glendale, Arizona next week to work. This is it! My vacation episode will be ending pretty soon. Just so you know, I don't know anyone in AZ besides a colleague whom I will be replacing at the client site and he is leaving too. Although I've done this a lot of times, I still feel nervous about going to a place that's unknown to me. I am sure it will be an adventure but knowing that life here in the US is way different from the life I got used to in Manila and Finland, I still get pretty scared. Please wish me luck!

Oh and by the way, the crush thing... it's pretty much over. I am trying to avoid him although he is absolutely flirting with me. Haha. I need to refocus myself on the things that should matter more here. No room for mistakes! No more unnecessary risks to take! Focus! Focus!

Monday, November 26, 2007

My Twenty-Something Birthday

Fine! It's 27! I am a year older. Thank you to everyone who did not forget my day. I am honestly surprised with how many people sent their greetings (through sms, emails, offline msgs, comments in my multiply, friendster, calls) this year.

It's difficult to be away from home especially in occasions that you are celebrating something important and you want your family to be a part of it. This is my first birthday that I celebrated away from home. My aunt and her family took me and my cousin from Sacramento to SeaWorld San Diego. (Twice in Seaworld in less than a month! Sulit na ang $92 annual pass!) We also had a nice Italian dinner at Buca di Beppo somewhere in Diego area. See! Being away from home on your birthday isn't so bad at all. I guess I just have to get used to this fact that I will be celebrating more special occasions alone and away from my comfort zone.

When I started working at 20, I have already mapped out my plans for the next 20years of my life. I kept an i-should-have-this-by-this-age and i-should-have-done-that-by-this-age checklist. I have always been the planner kind of person and I felt like everything that I do, my way of thinking and my decisions are all bound to affect my 20year plan. I admit I am a control freak. I want everything in order and how I planned them to be. During the past month that I have been in the US, I have met people who made me realize that there is life outside the confines of my office cubicle... that life is more fun when you take each day as they come... when you don't limit yourself to what you have mapped out for your life. God has been good to me the past year that he let me experience these wonderful things in my life. This blog is for those people who share the same passion as mine... to those who aren't afraid to explore and to those wandering souls who are trying to find meaning in their lives.

Friday, November 16, 2007

What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?

You would fall for the gentleman. Keep an eye out for your love at your next formal or field trip to the opera. Watch out for bad boys who walk on the inside of the curb and don't hold the door for you, and you'll end up with the guy who's suave, sophisticated, and classy through-and-through.
Find Your Character @

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Dazed and Confused

My relationship is in a difficult situation now. Although I've been away before, this is the first time in our relationship that we barely talk. I have always believed in long distance relationships, for as long as the partners exert every effort to make it work. HH and I havent been speaking with each other... well not as often as we used to when I was in Helsinki. This worries me because I dont see his effort to make things work out. And then I have this guy friend who gives me so much attention and I am honestly scared that I am slowly falling for him. My brain is resisting this temptation but my heart is starting to fall out of love with HH. I have so much love to give and yet the person I want to give it has started walking away from my life. This guy friend is not difficult to love. He's really kind and probably the boyfriend that you would bring home to meet your family. Although I had a lot of chances that I could have just easily told him that I like him, the Maria Clara in me stopped me. I am really hoping that this is just a passing fancy. I don't want to be caught up again in a very difficult situation that I had to choose.

The other day, this someone asked me if I was happy with HH. It took me a while before I answered, "I make him happy", referring to HH. And then this someone told me that I wasn't being true to myself because I wasn't happy. I guess I am destined to make other people happy at my expense. I am again having this feeling that I am so stuck in this relationship and I don't want to leave HH just because I am scared that it might ruin his life. I just feel that I am responsible for him now and that if he does anything bad or stupid to himself, I will be blaming myself for it. See... I hate it when somebody I like comes along because I am always having second thoughts about my current relationship with HH. Is this a sign that I should be re-evaluating my relationship? I was never like this in my past relationships. Maybe this is what happens when your feelings was just developed and there was really no spark between the two of you to begin with. Hayyy... I hate this feeling.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Reading between the lines

I arrived LA yesterday. I am currently staying at my aunt's house here in Temecula. She has a huge house here and my room is like a hotel room. I can literally live inside my own bathroom. Hahaha. Will post pictures of the house next time.

I was honestly sad to leave San Francisco. It felt like home there. I wasn't even homesick at all because the family who has adopted me is so warm and made me feel like I am really a part of their family. I could never be grateful enough to them. I am missing them so much.

I don't know if I should be bothered by my crush. He's been showing signs that I don't quite understand or should I say I am scared to find out the meaning of his words and actions. The day before I left, he was really sweet. He kept telling me during our yosi sessions and texting with me that he will miss me. I am just not sure if he just saw a sister in me that's why he will be missing me. Anyway, here are some excerpts of my chat conversations with him... maybe you can help me figure out if he likes me too...

r******** (11/7/2007 10:17:18 PM): feels funny to come home for lunch and youre not here...hehe
Me (11/8/2007 2:11:36 AM): =( you do miss me
r******** (11/8/2007 4:43:52 AM): hey sup...
r******** (11/8/2007 4:43:53 AM): just got home
r******** (11/8/2007 4:44:00 AM): yup i do..heheh

Aww... that was touching! There were several text messages the night before I left that he kept telling me that he will miss me. And then yesterday morning, he went to my room and said that if ever he won't be able to go to the airport with me, he's saying goodbye. He hugged me and whispered to my ear that he will miss me. And then during lunchtime he came to the house and took me to the airport with the rest of his family. (Imagine that! His mom, dad, brother, nephew and him took me to the airport!) When I got out of his car, he again hugged me then whispere that he is going to miss me. Whachatink?

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Friendster Survey #20

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
- credit card bills! I have tons of them.

2. Where's the best place to eat a romantic dinner?
- alfresco dinner overlooking the city of paris

3. Last time you puked from drinking?
- long time ago. I limit my alcohol intake as much as I can.

4 . Have you ever gotten drunk and danced on a bar?
- danced on top of the bar? nope.

5. Name of your first grade teacher?
- Ms. Limpin

6. What are you doing right now?
- working on Ron's website

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
- I think I wanted to be a lawyer, architect and teacher.

8. How many colleges did you attend?
- just 1... UP

9. Why did you get the shirt that you have on right now?
- bought it in one of my trips in Helsinki

11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you where would you go
- Honestly, I want to take my crush with me (haha) but then if we'll be spending a long time in that place, I'd bring HH along to Barcelona.

12 . First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
- Maaga pa... pwede pa matulog

13 . Last thought before going to sleep last night?
- I had a great night with crush. Bat kasi ngayon ka lang dumating?!

14. Favorite style of underwear?
- sensored

1 5. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex?
- boxers... haha

16. What errand/chore do you despise?
- cleaning the house!

17 . If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?
- of course

18. Get up early or sleep in?
- sleep in

19. Breakfast this morning?
- clam chowder and water

20 . Favorite thing to do at night with your honey?
- watch tv

21. A secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing?
- that I only have 50% chances of getting pregnant

22 . When did you first start feeling old?
- when my friends started getting married and having kids

23 . Favorite 80s movie?
- Back to the future

24. Your favorite lunch meal?
- Fried chicken

25. What do you get every time you go into Costco/Sam's Club?
- walang costco/sam's club sa manila

26 . Beach or Lake?
- none of the above.

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20?
- really?

28. Who do you stalk on myspace?
- nobody. he's not in myspace! hahaha

29. Favorite guilty pleasure?
- shopping

30 . Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?
- wala naman

31 . What's your drink?
- smirnoff ice

32. Who from high school would you like to run into?
- Angge... I hope to see her when I go down to LA next week

33 . What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
- back in manila, 101.5

34 . What is a rumor that someone has spread about you?
- that I was getting married. haha

35 . Futurama or Simpsons?
- simpsons

36. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
- no more regrets

37. If you could get away with it, who would you kill?
- nobody yet... haha

38. What famous person would you like to have dinner with??
- the Pope

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

San Francisco Stole My Heart - Part 3

Most of the time, I take my life too seriously that I have already forgotten how it felt like to have fun. As in fun which is still good, clean and wholesome and the kind of fun that makes you forget all your worries and moving to a place with no friends and relatives. It just feels good to be human again and enjoy life. I better not be too used to this because I might find it difficult to go back to my real, mundane life.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Lucky Me

Have you ever felt like you are living your life too well that it already seems surreal? I've been feeling extremely relaxed and happy during my past week here in SFO that when the stress and worries disappeared, as if something was missing. Imagine this... an adoptive family taking care of you, no work to worry about, shopping almost every other day and spending like there's no tomorrow, visiting new places that are too beautiful for words, having a crush who's just a few steps away from your room. Damn! I am living a good life! I know I don't deserve all of these but still I am very grateful for everything.

Been shopping excessively and I'm paying in cash! Wow that's new! Haha. When I say excessively, I meant like 5 pairs of new shoes in just one week. I was telling my brain to stop but my heart wanted me to spend and splurge. After all the super "pagtitipid" that I've done in Helsinki for the past 3 years I was there, it's about time to spend all those hard earned dollars. I am still an el cheapo when it comes to shopping because I don't buy stuff that aren't on sale... except for Mango clothes which is definitely a need for me.

I wanted to post a lot of pictures but I am worried that some people who are not supposed to find my blog might find it. Ewan ko... paranoid again.

Some happenings in my life the past week here in SFO besides shopping...
- Been to most of the tourist spots
- Met Ram's kid, Cyrus
- Met Ram's ex-gf, Cyrus' mom
- Went to a club with the tita's boys and got culture shocked
- Met tita and tito's extended family here in SFO
- Attended INC services twice... konti na lang malapit na ko magpa-convert. Hahaha
- Drink smirnoff ice every night to get me to sleep
- Anticipate that email from my crush... haha obssessed!
- Watched a movie at Metreon
- Super tipid yosi breaks.. as in like 2 sticks a day lang coz Dunhill is way expensive here. Ron bought me the Dunhill I am consuming now.

Lord, thank you for this good life.

Monday, October 22, 2007

San Francisco Stole My Heart - Part 2

I have a crush... check out my pictures and guess who. =)

The thought of leaving SFO is scaring the hell out of me. I don't know what to expect when I get to Houston but I am sure it won't be the same as what I've experienced here. Here in SFO, it feels like that my family is just near. I will surely miss this extended family that I have here. Hayyy....

On the otherhand, I think if I stay longer here, I will eventually end my relationship with HH. Yes, it's about the crush! I guess I've been reading between the lines too much that the thought of this person having the same thing for me is swimming inside my head. God I hate this! Fine! Maybe he's just being nice and all because I am a guest in their home and I should not be thinking of something else other than he's just showing acts of kindness... no malice, period. Still, I am starting to like him. *patay tayo jan* Whenever I look at our pictures, natatawa na lang ako. I sort of unconsciously lean towards him everytime he's in the picture with me. *clue! clue!* Maybe he already has hints of my liking him. I wouldn't be surprised if he suddenly avoids me. Haha. We did talk a couple of times about personal stuff. He knows I have a 6year old relationship in manila. He knows I will be leaving for houston soon. What else?? We danced the other night when he and his brothers took me in a club. He accompanied me all the time inside the club and acted like he was my date... bought me drinks, held my coat, kept my passport with him, held my hand when we tried to leave that crowded dancefloor. Seriously! If I were not their houseguest, I would have thought he really liked me. He was a complete gentleman except in the dancefloor. *I will not elaborate further* He went to my room the other day to lend me his bed tray so I can use my laptop in bed. And then yesterday he went to my room again to lend me his ipod speakers even if I was not borrowing them. Odd di ba? Basta, it feels so wrong having a crush when I've got a boyfriend in another continent. Hayy.... Nagkakasala ako dito.

***Removed pictures here.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

San Francisco Stole My Heart

Saying goodbye was never my forte. There's no such thing as an easier way of saying goodbye to something important much more to someone you care so much for. Last Thursday, I left for SFO armed with my guts and my dreams of complete independence. This was the first time that I cried when I went down the car, kissed my mom, my pops, my sister and HH, took my luggages and walked towards the airport entrance. I did not expect it to be that painful. I didn't even had the courage to look back at them as the car left because I knew it would have been more painful seeing them go.

I arrived in SFO the same day, thursday. Was picked up by our family friend and my adoptive mom (I am her new ampon), tita rossana with her husband. Obviously, I am enjoying my stay here and getting as much pampering and relaxation as I can get. This is just my 2nd day here and I am already saying all these praises. Their family is to die for... I just love them all... tita, tito, the twins (ron & rex), ram & ryan. I have never felt so welcomed before and I am so glad to have decided to stay with them. =)

John, you're right! I'd want to live here. =) I'll let the pictures speak for themselves...

*** Removed pictures here.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Beginning of 2-weeks Countdown

Exactly 2 weeks from today, my independent life begins. I can't say it's the start of the realization of my American dream because it was never my dream to live in the USA to begin with.

Errr... I'm too busy to elaborate how complicated my life is currently. All I know is that I desperately need a breather.

Keeping my fingers crossed... I hope everything falls into the right place.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

For how long can you hold the battlefield?

...mine probably ends now.

This is one of those days that I hate my job. I am currently involved in a soon to explode project where 50% of my resources are getting sick or are already sick because of too much stress they're getting from this project. For some reason, I am probably the only person who hasn't filed for sick leave since I started with this project. But I am really, really, really burned out already and this f*cking project is what's keeping me here in Manila. At times like this I seriously hate my boss for believing that I can save this project when everything is already beyond my control. All I can do is to watch and wait until the project explodes and the company gets sued or maybe just return the client's money and pay damages so we don't get sued. This project really sucks!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007


They say that your workplace is a reflection of yourself. My desktop is a reflection of my life....


Yup... my life is full of kalat.

Friday, September 14, 2007

My Dizizit Post

After 6 grueling hours...

I'm legally part of the working class of the United States of America. My L1B visa was approved and I'm flying soon.

Then reality hit me, is this good news or bad news?!?

Sunday, September 09, 2007

My Girlfriends

**photos removed by author**

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Legally Pinoy

Just wanted to share that I got my non-pro driver's license yesterday. Finally! Well, even if I have acquired my license, it does not mean my dislike for driving already disappeared. I still prefer being the passenger boss.

Although I have gone through the process of getting my license the legal way, we still asked help from a padrino. It greatly speeded up the process! We finished the application process in a about half a day which normally takes 1-2 whole days here in manila. Of course I took the exam and proudly passed it. I think I perfected it! Haha.

Mom also accompanied me to NBI main office here in manila and applied for an NBI clearance. They don't release NBI clearances on the same day just like in the past. It now takes 3 working days to process and have to go back there to personally claim it. Stupid system! I have to take a leave again from work just to pick up that piece of paper. UP Manila used to be right beside NBI office but I never ever applied for a clearance until yesterday. Could have been easier if it was for renewal. Anyway, the whole process of getting a form, validating, paying, getting your picture taken and putting finger prints took about less than half an hour. I think it could have taken more than an hour if not for my maabilidad skills of finding the shortest cue to the counters for each step of the process. Hehe.

Isn't it funny that it's only now that I am completing my legal/government documents just when I am about to leave?!

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Verbal Diarrhea

Yesterday was the last day of one of my teammates. He's flying to Singapore for greener pasteurs ergo better opportunity, higher salary, smaller taxation and higher cost of living. He was a good consultant. I can't help but be emotional about his leaving because I was the one who interviewed him when he was applying for a job here, I was the one who highly recommended him to be hired, he was my padawan for the last 9months, I personally handpicked him to be part of one of my successful projects. It pains me to let go of good people but as a good leader, I will never hinder them from growth and moving on.

It just sucks to know that most of our highly skilled professionals are migrating to other countries because of the lack of financial stability here in the philippines. Let's cut the crap out of nationalism and serving my fellow men. I've been in manila's corporate rat race for the last 6years and I've seen how difficult it is to do business here in manila (talk about a lot of legal holidays declared by the president, inflation rate, political instability, corruption). My salary as a paid employee can only go as high as what my company can afford paying me. But even with having enough money to afford my luxuries, do you really think the philippines is where you want to raise a family when there could be some place better? If there is another job that guarantees to give me better pay to afford and sustain more luxuries in life, a better life after retirement, I will not think twice. Hypocrisy aside, it's all about the money.


Ok... I just finished proofreading what I wrote above. Wtf! It's verbal diarrhea! I'm too lazy to do my work for today so I'm keeping myself productive by blogging. Hehe.

My weekend slacking activies:
- Download the rest of Grey's Anatomy season 3 episodes. Of course watch them afterwards.
- Play my newly downloaded flash games: Chocolatier, Fashion Story, Burger Island
- Download the Catherine Zeta-Jones movie "No Reservations"
- Watch more dvd's
- Babysit emails
- In-between the tasks I listed above, I intend to catch sleep

Fyi, this is my usual weekend activities. I could stay in bed for 2 whole days with only bathroom and meal breaks. Yes, I have a barely existing social life and an uncomplicated love life.

And oh btw, I got my schedule for the embassy interview. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Dizizit!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007


As much as I would like to be very professional with my job, sometimes it's inevitable to be emotional. Like for instance when something went wrong with a past project and the client complained about the PM's decision, boss would bring up the same topic over and over even during company GA's and weekly mancom meetings. Annoying really!

Whenever I make project decisions, I have always made it a point to consult my superiors. If I have made wrong calls, I have always been accountable for them even if the decision was approved by my superiors and a consensus of the team. I have suffered the consequences of these wrong decisions and for my boss to continuously dig and bring up those instances is really getting into my nerves. Adding more insult to injury is just way too much.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Random Thoughts About HK

- Luxury cars overload... Every couple of minutes (err..seconds) walking down HK streets, I was salivating over the luxury cars that passed by. I've been to europe but the number of luxury cars there was nothing compared to what I've seen in HK. Latest BMW, Audi, Porsche, Benz and Lexxus (my luho dream car)!
- Did you know that HK has clean air and streets. I tried walking on flip-flops for 1 whole day (literally walk and walk and walk) and guess what?! When I got back to the hostel, the soles of my feet are still squeaky clean. Look ma, no alikabok! Amazing!
- HK Tsim Tsa Tsui area is infested with bumbays so beware! Their smell is so revolting.
- When HK subway (otherwise known as MTR) crosses with another subway line, the drawing in the map is not realistic. They may appear as 1-2mm away from each other in the drawings but in real life, they are 1-2kilometers apart. Expect to do a lot of walking and climbing stairs.
- Harbour City is literally a city in terms of how huge it is. Probably that's the reason why it wasn't called Harbour Mall nor Harbour building because it's as big as a C-I-T-Y!
- It really is a shopping haven. I could spend an entire day inside the Esprit outlet and SaSa perfumery.
- Ocean Park is extremely crowded on weekends. I mean Divisoria-like during Christmas season crowded!
- Good food is everywhere.
- I thought Manila bus drivers are the worst, I had to reconsider when I rode a mini-bus in HK. The driver was speeding at 60kmph in a tiny street with lots of cars parked on both sides and pedestrians crossing. Scary!
- Mineral water doesn't come cheap especially inside Disney and Ocean Park.
- Never trust the weather forecast in HK. Before I left Manila, weather report in HK said there will be rainshowers and will be cloudy. During the 4 days I was in HK, it never rained and it was f*cking 34+ degrees hot.
- Tsim Tsa Tsui area reminds me of the old Ermita.
- They don't serve spaghetti and gravy in McDonald's and KFC.
- The IFC mall in central is infested with Pinoy DHs.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

So Blue Ginger-ish

- it's difficult for me to sleep when I have pending deliverables
- it's normal for me to sleep at 2am then wake up after 3hours and go to work... my officemates probably think I'm an alien
- even if i arrive at the office early like 7am, i never leave the office earlier than 7pm
- i sometimes think aloud. yes, i talk to myself, my laptop or some inanimate objects
- a failed/nearly failing project is a big no-no. who doesnt?!
- i have high expectations for myself
- i have high expectations from members of my team
- i worry too much even with the things I am not supposed to worry about.
- i like being intellectually challenged
- i hate working with unprofessional people.
- i complain a lot but still get things done even against my will
- if i dislike a project, it doesn't mean i will under-deliver... it gives me more reasons to perform well and prove I deserve a better project.
- in my mind, I am an escapist but I will never leave my project until it's done nor leave my project team in the middle of a battle
- i hate cleaning up somebody else's mess... literally and figuratively
- at the end of a draining and frustrating day, passion is the only thing that fuels me
- i am strict with deadlines and accountability
- admittedly, i am impatient but it takes so much to piss me off
- i am a control freak

Sunday, August 12, 2007

August Celebrations

- Belated happy anniversary to HH and I (Aug. 1). Thank you for the eat-all-you-can buffet lunch at Brazil Brazil. =)
- Belated happy birthday to HH (Aug. 7). Thank you for the Persian dinner you spent with me and the eat-all-you-can korean barbeque+shabu-shabu buffet last week.
- Belated happy 27th anniversary to my parents (Aug.9). Wow!

Upcoming celebrations...
- John's birthday on Aug. 17. (I hope im invited to his party.)
- Kuya Vince and Ate Sam's wedding in Bohol on Aug. 25 which Im afraid HH and I can't attend because of hectic schedules although I'd really love to fly to Bohol at this time of my life.
- My pop's 52nd birthday on Aug. 26.

So many events to celebrate. Too many eat-all-you-can buffets to try. After this month, I will be going on a diet. Promise!

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

HK Trip Part 1

I've been a lazy blogger. After I came back from Hong Kong last week, my workload tripled. I don't know where and how to start digging through the tons of things to finish. I don't have enough power to narrate everything we've done in Hong Kong so instead, I'll just be posting pictures.

*photos removed by author.*

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Six Years and Counting

I got back just in time for our 6th year anniversary. Whew! That long already?!

HH, happy anniversary to us! Here's to spending more years with you! (as if he gets to read this?! hehe)

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Hong Kong Virgin No More

HK vacation is just around the corner. Wooohoooo! I'll be back in a few days.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Hell days ahead

I wanted to post something positive and happy but then too many problems just kept on coming in more than what I am able to solve. I just wish that all these pressures and stress goes away soon.

My hell day started last week when I was forced into a time bomb project. My days are ticking and what's worse is that I can't do anything to defuse the bomb. Maybe this is my karma...

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

It's the time of the year

I hate to admit it but I do have geeky tendencies. The technical problems that I sink myself into are ones that involve nontrivial answers. Maybe this is the same reason why I enjoy watching Dr. House and CSI because I am so obssessed with problem-solving. There are instances in our life that we get to find solutions to problems without knowing what caused the problem. Not for the lack of interest in finding it out but sometimes what matters is that we get things fixed and get over with quickly. Sheesh... Im not making any sense.

The other day, another project was in the brink of exploding. It's not a project of my team and it's not even a java project. Boss called me and requested that I attend the client meeting with them. I honestly did not know what the meeting will be all about and basically no idea what the project is about. I just said to myself, it's again the time of the year when my boss panics so he calls everybody to the meeting for an all-star cast. And so I ended up attending the meeting anyway. How did it go? I was just glad that they did not end up throwing their laptops at each other but it was indeed a very hot and infuriating discussion. I could never be more glad to have gotten out of there in one piece.

After the client meeting, boss spoke to me as to what my assessment was about the situation. I pointed out some facts that could have caused the shortcomings of the team. Above all, a failed project will most likely be caused by mismanagement of the Project Manager. When the dev team fails to deliver, or there's a failed release, or you weren't able to manage the client expectations or for whatever reason it is, it will always, ALWAYS be the project manager's ownership. Yes it's unfair but it's what he's paid to do... to manage the project, to make sure everything is on time, within scope and within budget, to get everything to work in production and make the client happy. To cut the long story short, boss told me that he's thinking of replacing the current PM with me. Haha. Funny!

Trust me, I am flattered. Really! When will he ever realize that I am no superhero? I can probably help put out the fire but then I know I can only do so much. Not to mention I really, really hate cleaning-up after a mess. Hayyy! I just hope he changes his mind. If he's just looking for somebody to blame and he can mention the person's name and equate it to the failed project, then maybe I can take the PM job. I am used to his usual failed project-PM bashing and not be affected by it although my name never really made it to his failure hitlist, thank God! Well, it's just probably his time of the year.

Current happenings in my life...

Have I mentioned that I am done with my driving lessons? Anyway, HH lets me drive the Starex for short distances only. He still doubts my driving skills or maybe just my parking skills! Haha. Yeah... he gets really restless when I start parking the car as if he's going to have a nervous breakdown. I've never bumped the car, not even a tiny scratch. He's like this when I start parking the car in front of our house...
HH: SLOWLY! (shouting at my ear and grips the handbrake tightly)
Me: It's already slow!
HH: Move it a little forward. STOP!
Me: Like this?
HH: NO! NO! Make it straight! See, it's not straight! STOP!
Me: It is straight!
HH: Move it more. 2 feet more.
Me: Like this?
HH: I said 2 feet not 2 centimeters. C'mon MOVE!
HH: STOP!!!!

See! He's a bad teacher. I am still wondering how I've managed almost 6years with this guy. Seriously, I admit my parking skills are really bad. Hahaha.

For the past months, I've been attending christenings of my friends' babies at least every other week so that's like twice a month minimum. In the next few weeks, I'll be attending kiddie birthday parties of my friends' kids. This is clearly a sign of old age. OMG!

It's the architect's 2nd death anniversary. Wherever you are, may you rest in peace.

Friday, July 13, 2007

Where the road ends and the rest of the world begins...

It's Friday the 13th. Do you believe that this is badluck day? I am not really a believer of this luck thing but I do believe in Karma. What you give is what you get returned as what Savage Garden said in one of their songs. Our decisions contribute to what may or may not happen to our lives.

A friend of mine is in a difficult situation now. He got his ex-gf pregnant and just recently gave birth to a healthy baby girl. This friend of mine already has a new gf but this happened prior to knowing that his recent ex was pregnant. It is unknown to me why this friend and his ex broke-up but im very sure that it was not related to the pregnancy because he was not aware of it in the first place. Anyway, so now the new gf is sort of selos with the ex and the kiddo. The new mommy actually went through the whole pregnancy all by herself. My friend was barely visible to the mom during her pregnancy because the new gf is really selosa. My friend was just there when the mom was in labor and when she gave birth. I think he also signed the kid's birth certificate. I'm just not so sure what their current arrangement is for the kid.

My friend is a doting father but the thing is, he is in a very complicated situation. I asked him last week if there was a possibility of reconciling with the ex for the kid and he told me they aren't going back together just because of the kid.

My two cents on this matter... My friend is right. Having a kid is not enough reason to be together. If I were the single mom, I wouldn't allow the father to sign the birth certificate because I have no relationship with the father anymore. I think it would complicate things if I were to get married in the future and my eldest would have a different surname than her siblings just because I let her use her father's surname. Well, it's not just about the name. I think above all, the fact I was the one who chose to continue the pregnancy alone and probably raise the child alone, then it just makes sense if I completely cut the father out of the picture. Yes, a kid needs a father but probably not the same person who wasn't there when they needed him.

I think most of the IT industry will agree with me that Java projects are depressingly decreasing these days. It's not just my company who's going through this sudden lie-low of java projects while the .Net industry is amazingly picking up new consumers. Let's just say 90% of my company's current project is in .net while 5% is in classic ASP and the remaining 5% in java. Sad no? Our team's major java client is still undergoing restructuring so there are really barely any projects for us except maintenance jobs. My boss is actually thinking of throwing most of the java team temporarily at doing business analysis work for the .net team's project. Hayyyy... What a waste of java techie minds?! From the numerous projects that I've been juggling last year, I am down to just 1 project to manage. Boring! Come to think of it, this must be the perfect time to let me go and fly to the US. I hope that L1 is moving.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Helsinki Shopping Guide Part 2

I guess my motive for writing a shopping related post is that I've been on a strict no-shopping policy for the last month so obviously, this deprivation is the root of all the evil. I've been trying to save money for the shopping spree I might(?!) do while in HK at the end of the month. I just hope this overly kuripot scheme will be worth it.

To continue with my Helsinki shopping guide...

As far as I know, the cheapest souvenirs can be found in the Kauppatori Market Square. It is a flea market near the harbour. According to my former boss, if tinderas in the Philippines are as hot as those scandinavian vendor chicks , he wouldn't mind working as a palengke porter. Haha. No wonder people flock this market during summer. Fyi, in Finland, when the temperature goes 15degrees and up, Finn women start wearing summer clothes. And by summer clothes I mean sleeveless tees and two-piece (on the streets!). You can even see women sunbathing in the public parks wearing skimpy clothing. Anyway, the Finland shirts (t-shirts with Finland/Helsinki/Suomi prints) are cheaper here than anywhere else in the city center area. I also noticed that it's cheaper to buy these Finland shirts during summer season when it costs 20euros for 3 shirts while during winter it costs 15euros a piece!

Going back to souvenir shopping, you might also want to check out the souvenir shops near the Kauppatori Market along Etelaranta corner Etelaesplanadi. There are also a couple of souvenir shops along Pohjoisesplanadi but they're more expensive. This area is better known as the Esplanadi area which are the streets that surround the Helsinki Central Park. There are also a lot of souvenir shops within the Helsinki central area but I haven't visited all of them.

I think the best souvenirs from Finland are still the Nokia labelled stuff. You can buy these Nokia souvenirs in the Nokia House giftshop located in Keilalahti, Espoo. I am not so sure if outsiders can get inside the Nokia house but if you have Nokian friends, ask them to bring you to the Nokia house. It is Nokia's headquarters in Finland. I'm not sure if it's the biggest office they have but I think it's the best Nokia building I've seen in terms of architecture. Sale season in Nokia used to be sometime September-October. I am just not sure if it's still the same nowadays. They don't sell cellphones in their giftshop! FYI, buying cellphone in Finland is not advisable because it's still way cheaper to buy it here in pinas.

Helsinki Dining
In the city where everything is expensive, dining here is definitely pricey coming from a 3rd world country. The best cheap food that i've eaten is at the Kauppatori Market Square. There are these stalls selling paella cooked in huge paellera where I can fit in. It costs around less than 10euros/meal. When eating here, I usually order a bowl of paella and crispy fried small fish with sour cream sauce. This meal surely hits the spot! Of course, not to mention the hotties selling this paella whom my male colleagues enjoy gawking at while eating. Since this is an open-air market, be sure to bring jackets because weather in helsinki is sometimes erratic. It can be 15deg when you are under the sun but when you're on a shaded area, it might be 5degrees. Hehe. Also, watch out for flying seagulls that might swoop up your food.

If you want to try authentic Finnish cuisine, you might want to try Zetor restaurant where they serve reindeer meat. Yup! Santa's reindeer! I haven't personally tried the reindeer here but my former boss said it tasted good. I always order their Happy Tractor steak meduim well(which is not Finnish! maybe the cow is Finnish) that's so good. Btw, when ordering steak, when you say meduim well, it looks like meduim rare in pinoy standards so don't make a mistake of ordering medium rare... you might receive that uberly bloody live steak. Wallet damage is around 25-35euros/head.

A good italian fine dining resto in Helsinki is Papa Giovanni. Their pasta and steak is good. Dessert is very good especially the creme brulee. Wallet damage costs around 40-50euros/head including drinks.

I should just mention my big boss' favorite restaurant in Helsinki. It's an italian restaurant named Mamma Rosa near Scandic Continental Hotel where he usually stays in. Their pasta is good and of course the steak is good. Wallet damage is around 20-30euros/head including drinks.

Another italian pizzeria that we often go to is Pizzeria Dennis. They serve huge and great tasting pizzas which we often wonder how Finns are able to finish 1 whole pizza for themselves. When you get to your seat, you'll immediately be served with a free plate of salad which is also good. I love the pasta here especially the Spaghetti Pil Pil which is pasta with shrimps, garlic and parsley in spicy olive oil sauce. It actually sounds like Pasta Aglio Olio to me. Serving is good for 2 hungry Lisa's. You might even get a chance to meet the pinoy waiter working there. I totally forgot his name. Hehe. Wallet damage is around 15-20euros/head.

Another notable resto is Macu Restaurant at the ground floor of Crowne Plaza Hotel in Helsinki. It's a fine dining resto so expect paying a steep price. The carnivore me of course ordered the standard issue medium well steak. It should be good for 25,80€ a plate! I so love the ambiance here.

My favorite resto in Helsinki is Santa Fe which serves TexMex food. I usually order barbequed lamb chops or the king prawn skewer. This meal is usually accompanied with pear cider. Yummy! Wallet damage is around 20-30euros/head.

Did you notice the trend? My standard issue steak is the first thing that I order in most of the restaurants that I visit especially the fine dining ones. You think I am that rich to spend so much money paying for fine dining meals?? Nooooo! I am usually with my boss whenever we eat at those fancy restaurants so I really don't mind ordering steak. haha. I've also tried this Chinese resto near our apartment which sucks big time. I was really disappointed with the chinese food there. Villa Thai resto along Bulevardi was just so-so but it was pretty expensive for thai food. I've also tried Sandeep Indian Restaurant in Helsinki and it was ok.

I've been to a couple of bars in Helsinki but there is one place that we'd often go to. As in like out of 10, i've been to this place around 8 times. haha. The bar is named Belge Bar & Bistro and as its name suggests, it's a Belgian bar. In my opinion, this is one of the better interiored bars in the city. It actually looks like a big library with a bar. Don't ask me what this bar offers besides beer because I'm not a big drinker so I don't really know. I'd usually order 2 bottles of Smirnoff Ice and a Coke Light and that would be the end of a bar night for me. Anything in excess of that, I'm very sure I'd be drunk. I think a bottle of Smirnoff Ice costs around 7euros and beer costs around 3.5€-4€. On a heavy drinking night, expect to spend around 50€-70€ because I'm sure you'd be obliged to pay at least one round of drinks for your companions.

Mannerheimintie 3-5, Helsinki

Papa Giovanni
World Trade Center
Keskuskatu 7, Helsinki

Mamma Rosa
Runeberginkatu 55, Helsinki

Pizzeria Dennis

Kansakoulukatu 1, Helsinki

Crowne Plaza Hotel
Mannerheimintie 50, Helsinki

Santa Fé
Aleksanterinkatu 15, Helsinki

Belge Bar & Bistro
Kluuvikatu 5, Helsinki

Friday, July 06, 2007

Helsinki Shopping Guide

I should have done this post a long time ago when I was at the peak of my shopping career (???) in Helsinki. Haha. For those visiting Helsinki and plan to do shopping, the best time of the year to go there is around late june until early august to take advantage of their end of season sale. Although shopping is generally more expensive in Finland, specific brands are really cheaper there than here in manila such as Zara and Mango. There are also european brands that haven't reached manila yet but have very good product line namely H&M, Vero Moda and Wedins. Although I am a shopaholic, I am still el cheapo. I don't buy unreasonably priced goods. I can't afford Class A shops such as LV, Chanel, Prada so I settle for the cheaper class B&C shops.

Tax-free shopping
There are shops that carry the tax-free logo. I personally don't avail of this tax-free shopping because:
1. You cannot open the goods that you bought until you are out of EU customs and have refunded your 12-16% tax refund.
2. This means you have to handcarry your purchases because there's no fucking way to refund them if they have been checked-in with your baggage.
3. Since you have to handcarry these purchases, imagine how many times you have to put them in all the x-ray machines you'll pass through just to bring them with you to Pinas. Let me count... 1 xray machine in Vantaa,Helsinki airport, 2 xray machines in Schipol,Amsterdam airport. Que horror!

I will only avail of the tax-free shopping in Helsinki if the 12-16% refund exceeds 3,000pesos and if all the hassle of carrying them around is so worth it. Otherwise, stuff them all in the check-in baggage.

I love buying shoes in Helsinki because it's extremely rare that I will find somebody in manila wearing the same shoes. Walking shoes/sneakers are the ones that I mostly buy. The leather boots here are to die for but they are pretty expensive... around 100euros minimum.

El Cheapo me usually visit Wedins to buy shoes. If I am not mistaken, Wedins is a Swedish brand. They usually have 30-50% sale during the end of season. They carry a very nice line of walking shoes and sneakers. I usually buy my pasalubong for HH and pops here. Tip: the Wedins store located at Alexanterinkatu has a basement where they usually put their 70-90% off shoes!

Another great bargain place for shoes is at the K-citymarket (which is actually a supermarket!) shoes section in Kauppakeskus Ruoholahti. During sale season, rubbershoes and walking shoes are so cheap here. They carry the lines Nike, Reebok, Puma, Addidas, etc. I usually spend 1 to 2 hours rummaging their sale. Hehe.

Also inside the Kauppakeskus Ruoholahti mall is a shop named Brand Outlet Warehouse. I always try to visit this shop when they are on sale. They carry popular brands such as Diesel, Bronx, Miss Sixty, Pepe Jeans, Puma and Spirit. Do not buy Havaianas here because they're way too expensive. I love Bronx and Bianco shoes!

Clothes and Accessories
If there are 3 shops that I will max-out my credit limit, it would be Mango, H&M and Esprit (in that order!). Amazingly, it is cheaper to buy Mango and Zara stuff in Helsinki than in Manila. The newly opened Mango shop in Kamppi is the best place to visit during sale season because it's bigger than the other branch located in Alexanterikatu. They have more stocks and more fitting rooms. It is best to wait for the further reduction sale (which is around August) when doing your shopping because from the original 50% off, the prices go down to as low as 70% off. Mango is usually where my smuggled goodies come from. Hehe.

I am a big fan of H&M jackets. One thing I like about being in Europe is that they have the best jacket styles. I think the 4 seasons they have contributes to this mostly. There was one time when Pheng (my TL) and I went out to go shopping for summer clothes, we ended up buying 2 jackets each! Talk about summer clothes! Hahaha. Anyway, I think the biggest H&M store is the one along Aleksanterinkatu in Helsinki city center. Beware when going here during sale season, it gets pretty chaotic... long queues at the cashier and fitting rooms, ladies doing clothes fitting in every corner.

Although Esprit's headquarters is found in Germany, their sale season is not as exciting as with Esprit sale in the US. It's still way cheaper in the US (I'm not so sure if HongKong branch is cheaper though). There are these Esprit basic t-shirts that HH and I love to wear. These plain shirts are not sold here in the Philippines. I bought them for as low as 6euros each. The cheapest Esprit sale I've been to is in a shop named River Co. located in Itakeskus shopping mall which carries this brand.

There are also some notable clothes shop in Helsinki that I enjoy visiting once in a while: Vero Moda, Zara, Halonen, Aleksi 13, Seppälä, Anttila. When in a window shopping mood, I also visit Stockmann department store. Stockmann is a one-stop shop carrying the luxury and more expensive brands of clothes and shoes. It has its own supermarket, bakeshop, coffeshop, ice cream station, flowershop, etc. I rarely buy stuff from here because they're mostly expensive even on an end of season sale!

This is becoming a long post now and I'm getting tired. I'll cover shopping for souvenirs and dining in my next post.

Wedins Oy
Mannerheimintie 20, Helsinki

Itämerenkatu 21, Helsinki

Brand Outlet Warehouse
Itämerenkatu 21, Helsinki

Kamppi Center
Urho Kekkosenkatu 1, Helsinki

Aleksanterinkatu 11, Helsinki

River Company
Itäkeskus Shopping Center
Itäkeskus 5, Helsinki

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

It's Not Over

L1 papers are now moving. Boss told me that he has decided NOT to fasttrack my application because of some corporate reasons.

1. He's unsure about the future of the project that we have just recently proposed to a local client.
2. Buntis-5 (petname he uses to refer to my teamlead) just came back from her maternity leave and she's still trying to catch up after a long hiatus from work.
3. Fasttracking my application might endanger my scheduled HK vacation at the end of the month. Embassy interview might fall during the weekend I'm supposed to be in HK.
4. I haven't gotten my driver's license. Hehe
5. He's giving me 1.5months to settle everything I have to settle here in Manila.

Yep, you read it right. He's looking at sending me to the US next month. So far, his reasons are still valid so I wouldn't budge.

I've never really enjoyed rock music but after hearing Chris Daughtry, I think I'll be a convert pretty soon. I love his music!

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Victor Chronicles

Recent quotable quotes from my boss...

As much as I would like you to stay young, you just have to learn to be a grown-up when making decisions.

We build project leaders here, not just project managers.

On project leadership... under-commit and over-deliver.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Repost: Heaven Is You

Two years ago, I posted a blog entitled 'Heaven Is You'. It is a song that greatly reminds me of the architect. I wasn't able to upload the song until today. Finally, after 2 years, here it is...

Song of the Moment

HOME (Chris Daughtry)

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Been Busy...

- trying to close a deal with a client
- been going to Sta. Rosa, Laguna once a week to attend client meetings
- attended baby christenings for 2 consecutive weekends! there goes my inaanak list.
- attending driving classes during weekends. twice a week, 2hours per day. tiring! stick shift baby!
- watched Ocean's Thirteen which was way better than 12 and Fantastic 4- Rise of the Silver Surfer also in my opinion was better than the previous one.

Can't wait for my Hong Kong trip at the end of July. These trips AKA tiring vacations are something that I look forward to at the end of a tiring day at work. Motivation ba. there's no sense in working hard and keeping all that money when you can't enjoy what you worked hard for. ok... im making an excuse for spending. haha. But seriously, life's too short to be spent inside the office. Although we need to save money, opportunities to travel (i mean good schedule + good companions + fun) is priceless altogether. The probability of all team leads (who are my good friends) in my company will be allowed to be out of the office on 2 working days, in the middle of projects and absolutely no working while away is close to impossible. Nope, this is not a company outing but big boss allowed us to take a break all at the same time. However we would accept donations or sponsorships for hotel accommodations and plane fare from the company if big boss insist. hehe.

When people ask me how much I have saved from my per diem during my long deployments to Finland, I tell them none. My per diems are either inside my closet (in the form of clothes, bags and tons of shoes) or in my cd's containing pictures from the trips I've made. I love traveling. Maybe it's my purpose in life. Haha... exagge! Although I become homesick easily or hate long flights, something in me still wants to be always on the go to see new places, try something new or do unconventional things people my age don't usually experience.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

My Visual DNA



Wherever you are, happy 29th birthday!

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Still Counting

I've neglected this blog for many weeks. Been busy with work and counting the days until my teamlead comes back from maternity leave. Hehe. she's actually back from her leave since monday... what a relief! She's slowly taking some of my load and getting back to her work momentum.

By the way, I got my raise! Well, it was 51% increase from my old salary. It was a little short from the salary I was wishing for but who am I to complain considering getting more than 50% increase in salary doesn't come too often. Believe it or not, I've been underpaid for the last 4years.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

End of May updates...

- About to close another project order for a 60 manday local client

- About to close another PO for a 5 manday change request for nokia

- Currently working with Liferay portal... building custom ESS portlets

- Preparing for a demo for another local client. Obviously I am not doing any more coding work. Instead, I am slavedriving my team to deliver. This job sucks!

- Finished evaluating my team for the annual salary review.

- Scheduled myself for driving classes on weekends... yup... finally I've convinced myself that I need to learn how to drive

- Busy commuting almost everyday because HH bumped the hilux last week and the car is still undergoing repairs

- Eating dinner alone and spending more time alone after office hours because HH just started working in a Pilot's lounge so he can't fetch me everyday. Grrrr.

- Cigarette intake went a notch higher. For the past weeks, 1.5packs/week average.

- Applied for an SSS ID and student driver's license. Been working for over 6years and this is the only time I applied for an SSS ID. hehe.

- Bought pops a father's day gift which he actually asked from me. It's a new basketball rubbershoes. At the age of 51, he still plays basketball. He runs that 26meters court back and forth. Amazing!

- More busy days ahead...

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Season Finale

For the past months I've been keeping a close watch on the three TV series' episodes each week. I would wake up in the wee hours just to start downloading the torrents of my favorite series, just a few hours after it was shown in U.S. television. Last Friday, the season finale of Smallville season 6 was aired. By Saturday evening, I was already watching it. Last Sunday, the season finale of Desperate Housewives season 3 was aired in the US. By Monday evening, I was already watching it. Last Monday, the season finale of Heroes season 1 was aired. Yesterday afternoon, I was already watching it. I'm so addicted to watching them. In-between downloads, I've been watching House MD seasons 1 and 2, CSI seasons 4-6 and Friends seasons 4-6. So now what's next?

I am not sure if I am the only psychotic one who gets to have a crush in friendster. No, I don't know the guy personally and not even an acquaintance. He just looks like someone I know and i had a past with so he instantly became my crush. haha. Anway, about this crush, I've been stalking him on friendster and been reading his gf's blog. (Psychotic talaga ako!) Guess what I've found out awhile ago?!? Hiwalay na sila! Haha. OMG, I'm so bad! I'm not happy for how they ended up but I can't feel sad for them because I don't even know them so what the heck, crush ko yon so I wouldn't be a hypocrite.

Monday, May 14, 2007


I excercised my right to vote yesterday. Me and my sister went to vote while the rest of our family went out with my cousin's company outing to Subic yesterday. I didn't join them because I knew I will be very tired from the trip and I can't afford to be out of the office today. Have a couple of meetings that I need to attend and some urgent matters to settle. Anyway, I spent mother's day with my family last Sunday so I guess that's my excuse for not coming with them yesterday to the beach. Besides the fact that I don't really like getting too much tan and endure the excruciating heat of the summer sun. I'm just glad to have spent mother's day in manila with my mom after 3years of not being here during this occasion.

Last weekend was also my company outing that I boycotted for a couple of reasons which I am not sure if they're valid. Somehow, I just lost that passion to be that great employee who would always put her job first before anything else. Don't get me wrong. I still work my ass off but I think I am starting to be unhappy with this job. It's different when you enjoy your job and you work hard. For the last how many years, my circle of friends consisted mainly by the people who I work with. Since most of them have left the company, I haven't really gotten close to any new officemates and it sucks especially now that I don't want to risk getting close to the people I mentor. After the incident with one of my teammates, I realized, I should draw that line between being a boss and a friend and the only way I can think of doing it is to just treat them professionally. No more emotions. No wonder bosses take their lunches alone. =(

The good thing about being depressed about work is that I try to find alternative ways to have fun. I went out with my college buddies last Friday. It's been 2 years since I saw them and a lot has changed. A couple from my college barkada is getting married next year. This couple still blame me why they came together. If not for my teasing daw back in college, they wouldn't end up with each other. Awww! It was nice seeing them again.

Remember the song of savage garden, Affirmation?

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Bringer of Bad News

Sometimes we are forced to do things that we don't really want to do. Sometimes it's not a question of whether we will do it or not but rather a question of when we will do it. I was once again faced in a situation where my loyalty to the company was put to test. As a leader, my credibility and capability to protect the company above my personal gain was at stake. I feel bad for what I've said and done. I hate my boss for putting me in an uncomfortable situation that I couldn't escape without hurting somebody. I am not proud of it.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Blog Semi-Facelift

I was bored awhile ago so I started to tinker some of my old pictures. I thought maybe I could change my blog header image and replace it with my picture. And so, here is the product of boredom... TADDAAA! I loved the old color scheme so I kept it. Hence, a semi-new theme for blueginger.

Monday, May 07, 2007

Breaking the Bad News

What's worse than making that difficult decision was the fact that I had to relay that bad news to the person concerned. I've had stage fright. I've stuttered while saying my lines in a play. But nothing compared to what happened to me awhile ago while inside our HR's office with my team member and HR manager. I froze! As in! I wanted to explain my side for coming up with such decision but I just froze. HR manager did all the talking. Hayyyy....

I was right... he didn't see it coming. I just wish for him and his family to be able to survive this crisis.

Saturday, May 05, 2007

On blog frenzy


Re-evaluation of my compensation

Finally, here is the email I sent to boss to justify my increase. Warning: BS stuff found below. Of course I had to kiss his ass because I deserve that increase!

During the first 3years that I have been in your company, I never failed to get a merit increase twice a year. It was only during my 4th year that I did not get an increase. Not that I did not perform well the past year, but I guess there were other reasons. I have informed my immediate superior many times about that increase but I still failed to get it.

Modesty aside, I think I deserve a raise because of the following reasons…

1. After Jaime, I am your only consultant who is capable and knowledgeable to support ALL nokia projects written in java.

2. I am your only consultant in manila who knows netweaver which makes me Harald's peon whenever he needs something.

3. Here is a list of the projects that I headed and were delivered to Nokia within budget, within scope and on time:

* list of projects here!

These projects roughly amounted to around 280,000euros (that's about 17.9M pesos) during the past year.

4. I have taken on more responsibility than just being a technical consultant. There were several projects that I was performing PM, architect, developer, QA and account manager roles.

5. All the projects that I have managed were delivered on time or the delay was not caused by us.

6. As far as I know, client never complained about my performance as an external consultant. I could be wrong but that's just as far as I know.

After I have turned down that tempting offer from another company last year, I swore I will not entertain other offers for as long as I am happy with my job. There's something about consulting and this company that made me stay here this long. I read in one article that IT consulting life is not for everyone. It is a difficult life to adjust to and it's something that you really have to want. In spite of that, I still honestly enjoy this job.

I may be your bratty consultant but I know I am one of the few who will always take an extra mile in accomplishing the tasks given to me. I think 2006 was the most tiring and busiest year for me so far. After Jaime left, it was difficult to fill-in his shoes technically but I guess with my performance the past year, I wasn't so bad at all.

Friday, May 04, 2007

Protecting our business

I just have to let this feeling out...

We have a company policy of a 30days notice for resignation. This is to give ample time for the company to find a qualified replacement for whoever is leaving and perform proper turnover. However, there are cases that some consultants are asked not to complete this one month notice for special reasons.

Last thursday, big boss spoke to me about one of my team members who just recently resigned. He is worried about protecting our company because this team member decided to join a competitor. Thus, he asked me for a possibility to let this team member leave soon. As in right about end of next week. Of course, my initial reaction was to disagree with him because knowing that this team member is a breadwinner of his family and having no income until he starts his other job could mean financial difficulties to his family. After many hours of talking to my team lead and her trying to convince me that it's a difficult decision but eitherway should be done, I had to let this team member go. I emailed big boss and told him about my suggestions to make this "firing" a bit more bearable for this employee, he replied, "I appreciate your ownership of this difficult and matured decision". Whoa! Matured decision! I tell you, this is one of the most difficult decisions I've done for somebody else. I still feel so guilty. If it was a decision for myself and I was the one to suffer after this decision, it could have been easier. However, knowing that there might be a possibility that one family could be in such a difficult situation because of this decision, I feel so bad about it. Hayyy...

I told you, I am never really good in letting go.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Fourth Year And Counting

Yesterday was my 4th anniversary working in this company. Wow! Four years! Yesterday, officially I'm the most senior consultant (in terms of length of service) in this company after the owner of course!

For the past 2weeks, my team has been working on a portal prototype for a presentation to Nokia. It consists of the best of breed of Java frameworks bolted into a genius architecture. As I've mentioned in my previous post, I am a struggling boss after Roldz left. All these hardwork paid off after hearing Nokia's good comments on our presentation. Good job team!

Spoke to big boss about my salary. He said I still have to send him that email justifying my raise. Hayyyy...

I wish my Team Lead comes back from maternity leave real soon because I don't know for how long I can still hold this position without losing my sanity.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Labor Day

May 1, Labor Day is supposedly a holiday but my whole day was spent working in front of the computer. Uncle Ben once said to Peter Parker, "With great power comes great responsibility", I couldn't agree more. These are the times that I just hate my job. Is this position a blessing? Or a curse?

Repeat after me... i love my job. i love my job. i love my job.


Tuesday, April 24, 2007

How much are you worth?

The problem with working in a corporate world is that it seems like everything comes with a price. A very hefty price tag for that matter. If you want to hire the best, you need to make a generous offer that only someone crazy would turn down. Double or triple the salary that their currently getting or offer them tax shield. I'm very sure that'll be very difficult to resist. If you want your best employees to stay, you need to keep on upgrading their salary structure, benefits and probably offer them retirement benefits.

Big boss spoke to me the other day. I don't know how he found out that I am thinking of leaving the company. He asked me to give him figures on how much salary I want and a justification for such salary. Maybe this is a question that any employee would want to hear from their employers. However, I really think it's a very difficult question to answer because our natural instinct would be to ask for the maximum amount that the company can give us because in our minds we know we deserve something better. In my boss' eyes, do I really deserve this much amount? Can I convince him to give this much salary to me? Maybe i'll just try asking him and let you know if I convince him or not. Goodluck to me!


This is a long delayed post. It has been in my posting inbox as draft for almost a week now. Roldz' resignation has definitely affected me more than I expected. It's sad to know that I don't have any immediate superior whom I could trust. I mean, since my boss didn't have any replacement, I am currently reporting directly to the big boss which sucks big time! Big boss told me that it's my time to step-up and shine to lead the whole java team. I am sort of getting a promotion. Just "sort-of" because I have been doing this same task for more than a year now, the only difference is that I report directly to big boss. I wonder how Roldz was able to manage the pressure and disappointments reporting to big boss?! Hayyy...

Thursday, April 19, 2007


1. Java certification - My voucher expired last Feb. That's 5thousand pesoses down the drain. Wasn't able to take the exam due to that f*cking local project. Oh well, will just take it some other time hopefully before the year ends.

2. One flight out of the country via KLM to keep my platinum status - No news if there will be any big nokia projects that will require me to travel. There are several small-time projects with them currently but as far as I know, no big ones until end of 2nd quarter of this year.

3. Spain 101 - I need to absorb more spanish culture by visiting Espana. No progress at all. Seems like this is not a travel year for me.

4. LPF Piggy Bank - I need to save money. For starters, I bought a green piggy bank and HH named it, "Lisa's Paris Funds". Hehe. I was hoping to visit Paris one more time because the last time was too short and I didnt even make it inside Louvre nor Notre Dame nor Sacre Coeur, aka. "culture Labas". Hehe. The next time I will see Paris, I swear not to eat Chinese food there. Haha. Yep, I ate Chinese food for 2 days in Paris! San ka pa?! Next time ko na lang kwento mga bloopers ko dun sa Amazing Race Rome & Paris last year.

5. Clean my stuff - CHECK! Almost done. Will do more cleaning-up of the rest of my kalat during the weekend.

6. Health concerns - Odd cyst on the left eye disappeared. Thank god! Polycystic left ovary... as of November last year, it was gone. Haven't seen my OB during the last 5months so this month is a good time to see her. Had prophylaxis and tooth filling last month. So far still good.

7. Aesthetics - Haircut... CHECK! Hide the signs of aging... CHECK! Hair damage control... CHECK! Diet... err... NADA.

8. Quick V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N - Went to Tagaytay twice during the last quarter.

9. L1.... maybe we should not talk about it here. Boss gave me news... more bad news.

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger

I had a sensible chat with the late architect's cousin. As usual, it was one of those reminiscing conversations. The architect's cousin and I share this semi-awkward relationship because 1. i am her cousin's ex-gf whom she is very close to, 2. she is my cousin's ex whom I am very close to, 3. she was a common friend of HH and I (probably also the reason why HH is my bf now) 4. my bf used to have a crush on her (hehe. binuking ko!). How cool is that?! Yeah it is an overly small world for both of us so I guess instead of hating each other for not ending up with each other's cousins, we could at least be good friends instead.

It's boss' last day next week. Many things are still running inside my head. It's been more than a quarter since big boss promised that he is following-up my visa application. No good news til now. I admit my patience is only 3feet long. What I hate about waiting is that I had to stall everything in my life just because I don't know when I am going to leave. I can't even plan a vacation 3months from now just because I worry that the embassy might require me to be in Manila then. It's really annoying to have to wait with no assurance on what your future could be. I guess my boss already has a hint that I am becoming impatient waiting. I'm actually giving him until June this year to send me to US, if not, I am quitting his company. Well he doesn't actually know the deadline because I don't want him to be reactive. I want him to send me to the US on his own freewill and not because I threatened him that I'll resign.

I think I better start looking for another job...

Monday, April 09, 2007

To dispose or not to dispose...

Just when I thought I was almost done with my cleaning-up task, mom just broke to me that I am not even halfway done. What?!? Well, I shouldn't be surprised because I have 10years worth of kalat and I expect myself to do the clean-up in just 3days?! Hehe.

Here are some of the things that I found during the past 3days...

1. More ugly pictures eg. jeproks-looking, siopao-looking, wilma-is-that-you (wilma in flordeluna..hehe)
2. Cigarettes given to me by Doc (yes, the ex!) when we were still going out. Of course it's stale because it's almost 9years old. Yuck! Amazingly, I kept it.
3. Used facial tissue that doc used to wipe his sweat. Whahaha! Also almost 9years old. Psychotic talaga ako dati!
4. Lots of handwritten diaries since 1995 and I swear never to write a diary on paper ever again. It's so difficult to dispose that I had to tear each page by hand!
5. Tons of vcd's and dvd's.
6. Highschool ID's. It's funny to look at how my face evolved from the Nene me to the mature looking me.
7. Old FHM issues. HH and I used to collect these magazines.
8. Wine cork from my one week all expense paid Cebu trip that we spent in Plantation bay with my bes and friends. There were 7 of us who were all underage then and we travelled by ourselves. 3 girls, 1 boy, 3 badings. This was in May'98. Definitely one of the best trips I've had.

As opposed to my belief that I have difficulties in letting go, it wasn't difficult to dispose much of these things after all.

Sunday, April 08, 2007

More Cleaning-up posts

We went to Pampanga awhile ago with HH (aka. the driver), my parents and our bunso to pick up my other siblings who were at her boyfriend's house because of the fiesta. This isn't the first time that the future in-laws will meet. My sister's boyfriend, Bryan, lives in Pampanga and visits my sister here in Manila almost every week. Ang tiyaga ano?! Anyway, it's nice to know that our family now knows my sister's boyfriend's family. At least we now know where to hunt down this guy if he does something bad to my sister. Hehe.


After my quickie relationship with Mike(ex#1... the M.D.), it took more than a year to feel ok(take note, I didn't say I was already over) about him. My relationship with Mike was a living proof that good friends cannot be lovers. Mike and I were too comfortable with each other as friends and when we tried going a step higher in the relationship ladder, it didnt work. What went wrong? Probably it was the wrong timing and conspiracy of the world around us. That time, there was just too much problems that being in a relationship became unbearable for both of us. Probably, my only regret was I should have not returned the ring he gave me. Hahaha. Stupid me! Pwede na sana isanla yung ring para pang-tuition ko. =)

I just realized that I was such an a**hole before. Ok... I got involved with this Aussie guy (Pinoy but living in down under) but when the architect courted me, I dumped Mr. Aussie to be with the architect. Knowing me, a person who does not believe in courtship, it seemed that it was so easy for me to give up my 2months involvement with Mr. Aussie for the 1week barely knowing Mr. Swept-Me-Off-My-Feet architect. What an ass! Fine... I've done things that I could not be proud of.

No wonder I am getting bad karma most of the time in the love department. God must be punishing me for my kalokohans before. I'm so doomed...

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Random realizations after the clean-up

1. I am capable of stalking my crush and memorize how many pairs of shoes he owns. Psycho!
2. I can be so OC at times that I could plan what attire to wear (take note: head to foot!) one month in advance.
3. I doodle my name, my exes names, and crushes names in almost all of my notebooks.
4. I exchange personal notes/messages with my friends during classhours whenever I get bored.
5. I have a very nice penmanship until college. I don't know why my penmanship is so bad now but probably the computer has something to do with it.
6. I hoard UP bluebooks. I was surprised to find out that I still own 30 pieces of unused bluebooks hidden in my stuff.
7. I had a ka-M.U. inside the classroom. Of course he's a classmate! No, he did not find out and I intend to keep it that way.
8. I was an average student in college as opposed to my excellent academic standing back in highschool. There's just too much smarter people than me inside UP.
9. I still have ugly pictures that I swore would kill if it gets out of our house and gets seen by other people. I wanted to burn them but mom didn't want to dispose any of them because she said, those photos will never happen again. I sure hope my ugly days were over!
10. Emotional cleaning up takes a longer time to accomplish.